When I was working with a therapist in 2007, I thought I was getting over a lot of pain from my past lives. However, after getting over this pain, my life didn’t really change.
As time went by, I came to believe that dealing with past life problems was a waste of time and ended up concentrating on what had happened in this life. About seven years after this, I ended up researching this area again.
A seemingly random encounter
In late 2014 I met someone named Ian Baillie, and this was someone who knew everything about past lives. It didn’t take long for him to come up with a life that I had had in the past, and as time passed, he shared other lives that I had had.
It became clear that he had the ability to tune into what someone had been through in the past. I was a bit skeptical at this point, but I was open-minded and willing to listen to what he had to say.
A life
By spending more time with Ian and becoming good friends with him in the process, I began to open up more to what he was talking about. As for the last life I had, he said that I was present during the Vietnam war and that I was killed fighting in this war.
When I thought about this, it made perfect sense, as when I had a load of trauma that surfaced around 2011, I felt like I was in a war zone. Still, I attribute this to the fact that I grew up in a very unstable environment.
The obvious reason
I had spent years researching the effect my childhood years had on me and seeing this moment in my life as why I was feeling so traumatized made sense. If my early years were very enriching and supportive, chances are I would have believed that what I went through was the result of the last life I had.
After this, I continued to work through the layers of pain that were within me and did not think much about this past life. A few years later, my attention was drawn back to this area when I was looking at a book that talked about the effect that past lives can have on someone.
Another look
In a way, it was like they encouraged me to look in this area again and see something that I hadn’t seen yet. I thought about having a past life regression session, but that was it.
I had gotten to the point where I felt like I could do this job on my own and I no longer felt the need to look outside of myself for help. So instead of having one of these sessions, I continued to do inner child work on myself.
I went deeper
When I do this work on myself, I usually connect with a part of me that is hurting due to being neglected and I end up suffering from these unmet needs. But when I did this another time, I connected with a part of me that was very different.
This part of me wasn’t sad because its needs weren’t met, it was sad because it couldn’t finish what it started. From the outside he looked like a child, but from what he said it was as if he were an adult.
Other life
From what this part of me was saying and based on how he felt, it was like at one point he was in one life and at another time he was in another life. Along with this, this part of me didn’t feel safe.
I ended up thinking about how frustrating it must be to go from one life to another since there is nothing that this part of our being can do; That is, of course, unless we are raised by people who are deeply in tune with themselves. First, we can go from being a capable adult to being a helpless baby, and second, there is no way for us to communicate with our caregivers.
Very misleading
This part of me didn’t see my caregivers as my mother and father; he simply saw them as people who were there to care for him. And because of what it was like for him last time and how scared he was, he wanted to protect them.
The way he looked from the outside was nothing like what was going on inside. The only option I had was to allow this part of me to regret what was lost; the same way I would do this for my inner child.
Final thoughts
I came to see that my initial environment was simply a continuation of what this last life was like. What had happened in this life influenced how I felt and what had happened before also influenced.
Perhaps you feel that what happened in a past life is impacting your present life or perhaps this is not something you have thought about before. My advice would be to keep an open mind and see what you find.
